if he's the one, he won't go anywhere honey
just be patient. allah always give u what u need, not what u want, cause sometimes, what you want is not what you really need

my resolutions for 2009

1. KURUS
2. DAPET JODOH
3. MENJADI ORANG YANG LEBIH BAIK, LEBIH TAAT BERAGAMA
4. MENDAPAT IP DIATAS 3.2

ini hari ke 4 uts gue. hadohh the last 2 days. its been so messed up!! banget!!!!!!!!! PARAH ABIS.
bener bener diminishing marginal !!!!!! tidak tidak

pas ekonomi ama ibm, okelah. NAH PAS BISMAT! WAT THE HELL ABIS. dari empat soal, gue salah 3 ANJENGGG.. trus hari ini civics, berkat gue gak bljr kmrn malah nntn gossip girl, gue gak tau tadi mesti jawab apa. ngemeng aja ngasal abis. trus yah abis itu techbis! SAMA JUGA. but even worse! masa yaaaa ditanyain the dinamycs of technological changes, gue awalnya jawabnya udh bener tuh.. eh malah GUE GANTI. DAN SALAH. whats wrong with me????

i think i should apologize to her. i mean what she said to me, actually come true gt. OH NO
 :(

I HAVE TO BE BETTER AFTER MIDTEST

hopefully, my MIDTESTS ARE NOT AS BAD AS I THOUGHT

day 1:

gue brangkat dari rumah jam 5 pagi bok menuju prasmul, soalnya kita mau brangkat ke jatiluhur jam 6 (yaah tapi pas prakteknya gak jam 6 juga sih brangkatnya, agak2 lewat dikit laah).. kita tuh brangkat pake tronton cobaa yah tolong, ampun banget deeh , but it was fun, kapan lagi lo naek tronton.. gue setronton ama pops wulan reksi, astra, trus yaah banyak laah intinyaa..
nyampe di jatiluhurnya jam 9 nan laah trus kita disuru bikin lingkaran gt, yaah ada welcoming ceremony nyah laah.. trus dibagi2 per kelompok, yah bertemu lah saya dengan anggota kelompok 3 yang laen yaitu albert kuning,  adit,  antoni,  adlyn,  ajeng,  dea,  dissa,  clara,  albert orange,  bambang,  pektai,  abdul bowo.. kita dapet tempat di tenda gt, agak2 di anak tirikan siih, tapi yang penting kelompok 3.. PRASMUL! hhahh
kegiatannya pas hari pertama tuh yaah perkenalan gt laah, awalnya kita disuru nyari tau sebanyak2 ttg temen kita (di group in 2-2 gt), trus ada kegiatan lempar bola gt trus ada kegiatan yang menjatohkan diri trus ditangkap oleh teman2 (yaa maaf yaa gue tau gue berat haha)
LALU abis itu kita kegiatan HIGH ROPE -_- ini menurut gue paling susah kedua, tapi gue seneng gara2 gue bisa nyeleseiin high ropenya ampe slese :) 
trus malemnya MASAK DEH! agak lumayan ribet deh yaaw! abis makan ada review dikit laah ttg kegiatan hari ini, tapi abis itu kita tidur! hahahah tidur nya cuman diatas matras setipis matras yoga di tenda pleton gt, gak ada bantal, banyak binatang yang join kita tidur! tp ending2nya gue tdr, cuman rada2 kebangun dikit

day 2: 

dibangunin jam stengah 6 pagi trus kita senam pagi, tapi karena kita telat yah disuru push up laah..
kegiatan hari kedua tuh hiking dan canoeing.. nih yaa gue udh smangat2 hiking, udh jalan di depaaan.. EEH SALAH JALAN COBAAAAAA... iih kesel trus jadi kyk gak semangat dan capenya jadi keluar.. trus di hiking itu kita disuru ke batu gt, HEY KOK BATUNYA KASYIL KHAN.. udh super menanjak banget gt, aah cape laah.. tapi akhirnya slese jugaa bok! YES..
tapi abis itu kano.. aah hari keduaa udh dehh, paginya latian kaki, siang-malem latian tangan ampe berotot! ngemeng lah emang.. mana gue nyampenya terakhir lagi brg antoni dan albert orange..

day 3 :
jam 2 pagi refleksii yaaah tolongggg!!!!!!!!!!.. AAAA.. tapi gr2 refleksi gt, gue jadi agak menyadari sesuatu hal.. hahahah lalu2 stelah refleksi gue tdr lagi hahahha, ppdhl awalnya gak mau tdr tuh, akhirnya bobo juga..
kegiatan terakhir : BIKIN RAKIT gt buat RAFTING! udh deh pol banget ni kegiatan! gue bikin simpul ampe tangan gue pengen copot gt laaah!
trus kita naekin tuh rakit lalu disuru ke daratan gt, nah pas nyampe dibuka lagi coba iketannya.. pdhl udh bagus2! lalu2 dikasi semangkaaa.. itu adalah semangka terenak yang pernah gue makan! trus akhirnya kita balik ke tempat OBI nya.. pas turun dari kapal, langsung deh lari menuju KAMAR MANDI! HAHAHAHAHAH.. trus slese mandi makan.. trus dibagiin sertifikat!

iih overall seneng deh gue ama outbon kalii ini, walopun kegiatannya ekstrim capenya tapi bermanfaat dan sangat amat menyenangkan!!!  apalagi dengan anak2 kel 3 yang oke2.. mantab dah! kelompok 3 jalan yok!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................................................. AYOOOOOOOOOOOO DOOOOOOOONGGGGGGGGGGGG TELPPPPPPPPPPPPOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN SAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA............ PLISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS..............................

I CAN'T SLEEP, I CAN'T THINK, I DO NOTHING, JUST STARRING AT THE WALLS WHERE I PUT YOU ON IT.................................


T_T T_T T_T

oh gosh! i just finished watching criminal minds season 3! omg omg, im so curious about the ending.. all of the team got into the suvs, but one of the suvs was blown up! and I DIDNT KNOW WHICH ONE IN THE SUVS !!!!
im guessing maybe derek morgan, the place before he got in the suv is match to the scene was taken when the suv blew up.. but it might be JJ, cause she's like really pregnant! and in the real life, she's really expecting, and its due in october.. while, the season 4 begin on september 24th, so maybe JJ should take time off.. so the director, making this accident as a reason for JJ not showing in the next season.. but thats mean, JJ will die right?? aawww I DONT WANT THAT.. what the team can possibly do without her.. T_T no one should leave the team.. well maybe gideon will be back.. but i dont want to loose JJ or Morgan or Reid or Garcia or even Prentiss and Hotch and Rossi.. although i dont like rossi, but he;s already part of the team! but if he in the blown up suv than, its ok, maybe gideon will replace him :D

for you who have seen spiderwick... you know rite when mr spiderwick took by the slyph in order to save him from goblins.. and then in the end, mr spiderwick came back, with the slyph around him, he took his only child, lucynda, with him.. well.. for some reason, i think there will be some time, when the time has come for my mother to die (i hope that it will never happen), i wish those slyphs will take me and my mother and my brother, so we can stay together.. living with no end.. keep us young and forget about time and other things.. for some reason, i was sad with spiderwick's ending..

i realize that someday there will be our end, each of us. maybe for ka riri, her journey stopped when she was 16.. and other people is given 100 years to live this life. we don't know, when and where our time will end. we live in this world alone. we were born through our mom's vagina alone, no one accompanied us.. so why do we have to afraid to leave this world alone.. yes we're social creatures. we can't leave without others, but other's just helping us as the hand of god.. it is us, to decide how to treat those hands.. all the suggestions, anger, sadness, happiness, disaster, and etc are just warning for us. not that we made any mistakes, but that's the point, those warns are given to keep us on the right way.. yet, we made so much mistakes, and yes we regretted it, but if we didn't do wrong, then how do we know the right way ?? mistakes are just mistakes, its up to you whether you want to learn from it or you just want to leave it.

and all those 'signs' are given to us, to direct us to good things.. i trust it and i have faith in it. you might not like the way you are now, but have you consider that the way you are know is good for your future ?? i haven't find any answers to that either. but i just believe that everything happens to you, is just signs from the future, so you can get a better place in the future. some might realize the message some might not.

i have new addiction! hahahahhaah im so crazy about 'criminal minds' its a tv series from cbs.. although im not to familiar with the casts.. but actually they're really good meh meh meh.. okaay, for u who doesn't understand 'criminal minds'.. the story is about BAU in FBI, BAU is Behavioral Analysis Unit.. their job is to find why people tend to be serial killer, more phsycologicly and victimology. they solve their cases from victimology point of view.. its pretty interesting because there're people who i used to think, that they're nerd and very unsocial, and then after i watched criminal minds, i see them as a very cool bunch of guys..
well if you don't mind  to see some blood and wounds, you should see this tv series, its so addictive..

well i know, hahah i liked korean drama before (but i still do) and now, suddenly  watched detective series such as bones and criminal minds.. pretty weird huh?! but yaah, im trying to watch new things, besides right now currently airing korean dramas are not so good, the story is not showing much creativity than before.. so yah i kinda bored.. but thats ok, i still love korea aahahh..

ow yeah, i think im gonna watch ugly betty too. hahah i know! dont blame me! im a tv series junkie.. and i have nothing to do in this holiday.. hahaha and i think i become unsociable.. :(

being left by my hugging buddy and then by my own twins.. aaaarrrghhh... sediih deh :(((

karena gue udh nulis ttg kpregian fitrii, so skrg gue mau crita ttg mrsya's leaving

my twins pergi tgl 26 juni 2008 jam 5 tk off nyaaa, gue brangkat ke airport brg si mrsya ama tithaa.. sebenernya, smlemnya gue mau nginep cuman, gara2 si food poisoning gue jadi gak bisa nginep deh! kesaal
yak jadinya, pas siang kucluk2 dtg kerumah mrsyaa, masi agak gak percaya kalo dia mau pergi coba! bukan liburan lagiii..
truss yah pas dirumah si mrsya agak sedih deh, kyk ngeliat ruang2nya gt, trus gue tau pasti gue gak bakal kerumahnya slama 6 bulan, :((((((((((, udh pengen nangis si dirumah mrsyaa, cuman maluu deh akyuu ada banyak org2 fufufu

lalu2 kita mengantar.. hahahha di mobil gue gak konek abis, hahahaha, pokoknya mrsya lagi ngmg in, ttg2 koper2 yg mau dia bawa gt kan, trus gue nyambungnya ngmg mobil yang bentuknya kyk kotak sabun!!! hahahha super erooooorrrr! hahaha apa cobaaa, udh laah udh gak konek banget gue waktu di mobil, sparuh jiwakuu ilang mau dibawa ama si twins! hahaha

yak lalu di airport biasalah nungguin orgnya brgkt trus foto2 trus kita bergozzip2 riaa, biasalaah. hahahapas mrsya brgkt, as usual gue kyk masih gak "ngeh" kalo dia mau kuliah di ostrali, kyk kesannya yah liburan aja diaa, trus just now, gue baru ngeh bener kalo dia mau bljr di melb, same thing happen agaiiin! wkt itu sama fitri skrg ama mrsyaa!

kalo wkt fitri gr2 ngimpii gt trus gue jadi nangis, kalo sekarang gara2 pmnya bram ttg event drift gituu, trus gue langsung ke inget marsyaaa, pasti kalo ada mrsya dia heboh deeh, trus langsung deh sungai di mata ku mengamuk *lebay* hahaha

yaaah kawan2 sedih banget kita pisah :((( tapi bukan berarti kita gak kontek2an kaaan ??

i love u sooo my besties :)))))))))), apalagii yang jauh2 :(

episode : 9
dialog : Kim Eun Hoo thoughts before he died


I don't think life is unfair
that life was meant to be short

When i met you and spent time with you,
those memories are with me
I don't think life is unfair...

However...

Regrets...

Painful regrets, I will take it wit me
That i couldn't love you anymore
That i couldn't rescue you from this cruel world
These things i regret...

I hope you won't shed too many tears for me
I don't wish for you to cry
Rather, let me cry over your loneliness
Since I'm going to a place where i can watch over you always
The tears that i shed will not be a burden to you
I hope the love you have given me doesn't burden you too much and pray that you'll be happy


I LOVE THIS SO MUCH ^_^

yesterday on 20 june 2008.. fitri was leaving to LA.. lalalaaal...pas di airport, gue masii yaaa agak2 gak percaya kalo dia udh ke LA, dan baliknya tuh ntar 6 years later maybe!!! we (gue mrsya abel abe ryan nykpnya ryan) waited longer than others, hoped that she'll come out again, buuuuttttt... sebenernya kita udh tau siih kalo fitri gak bakal keluar lagiiii.. jadi yasudahlaaah..

malemnya si fitri online di taipei, (tempat transitnya gituuu) trus we chat lah yaaa.. lalalalala... mood = still couldn't believe that she's no longer in jakarta

this morning, pas subuh2, gue ngimpiii.. jadi kita kyk di skolah gituu, cuman ruangann kelasnya beda, di kelas itu ada cika, ryan, arlene, astrid, trus yang laennya gue lupa.. pas di mimpi ituu, si fitri juga udh pergi.. trus yah gue ngobrol2 ama ryan + cika + others yang gue lupa siapa aja.. trus tiba2 pas gue ngeliat mukanya ryaaan, i remember that fitri is not here anymore, and theeen.. i start crying and crying.. gue nangis kyk makin mensedu2 gt.. u know kan, nangis yang ampe kita sendiri susah napas gtuu.. the more gue ngeliat mukanya ryan smakin gue nangis, smakin ngingetin gue ama fitri.. trus ryan mukanya juga gt lagiii, jadi tambah nangis gue

and then i woke up (bener2 bangun) and then i started crying, just like in my dreaam.. anddd yeaaaaahhh gue tersadar bahwa she's not coming back, probably in 3-6 years.. she's in LA and i'm in JKRT!!!! trus eke langsung solat subuh, tapi masi ttp nangis ampe solat suubuhnya selese.. i miss her too much ampe2 gue gak mau terima kenyataan kalo dia gak di jkrt lagiii..  :((((((

i knoww kita udh lulus sma, and we have our own path, its just, ini tuh terlalu cepet..
dan satu hal yang gue keselin adalaah, i kept wasting time, waktu masi ada fitriii.. gue mikir aah fitri perginya masi laamaa.. masi ada waktu laah buat SWEETS DAY! dan kenyataaannyaaa waktunya sekarang UDH GAK ADA... gue ngerasa kesel + sedih + angry to myself..

i finished gossip girl, well the end sii okeh2 sazaa, because i know there'll be 2nd season.. kokconghajimal!!! hahahhaah *its korean for dont worry! but i dont know how to write it down hehe*
and i also finished single dad in love, which is a korean tv series.. the story was ok, in fact not to good, its lil bit sinetron, so i kinda skipped the episodes, and watched the ending rite a way.. omg about the ending, this is (maybe) the second or the third time i cried because of the dramas... but in this drama, gue nangis bener2 nangis.. my tears just wont stopped.. omg.. but the ending its too bersambung, soalnya pas gue lagi nangis2nya.. eh ternyataaaaaaaa dramanyaaa seleseeeeeeeeeeeee..... wht the hell ???!!!! !@#$%
gue super agak jarang nangis sesenggukan gara2 drama, well pernah siii, itupun gara2 film armageddon, tapi kalo drama jarang deh kayaknyaaaa... sesedih2nya gue, gak pernah ampe sesenggukkan.. paling netes trus udh!!! hhahaahhahaah
about the drama, boleh si ditonton, tapi ampe ep 12 aja yaaa.. trus langsung ke episode 16.. hihihihi...

yep, i just watched Gossip Girl, ep 16-17. wuow! i like these episodes so much you know.. because i finally find out the good side from the bad ppl (chuck and blair).
i used to hate chuck (the character not the person) because he's such a playboy (kelas kakap lah) and he always use his dad's money to get anything he wants. well u know, partyiing and all that stuff. i really dont mind, but he's using it a bit to much.
and blair, i hated her also, cause she's such a bitch! (the character), she's being friends with other ppl, because she wants to use them, to get  things in her way. and in this ep too, i find blair, very trustful friend towards serena.. you know because serena had a thing in her past, its very secret.

in this episode the value of friendship is very important. chuck, blair, and nate help serena out of her trouble. although they hate each other, when it comes to serena, they become one and help her. aaaawww... so sweet really!!!! omg i like this tow eps so much!!!!!! kyaaaaa...

ooh fuck and wht a great day! someone interrupt my internet connection, so the speed is very slow.. fuck whoever she/he is!
and another bad news, i just read saiun mono II ep 39 summary, ANDD.. i think the ending will be sucks you know, cause in the ryuuki and shuurei will not be together as i expected.. i hvnt watch it but i know i'll be sad and angry and aaarrrghhhh... how can they not be together ?????????? lalallalalalalala.... dont want to know.. but ithink i still gonna watch it until finish.. aarrghhh..

hey guys i just got back from grand indo.. kita abis nyaman buat pembukaan acara kinokuniya di grand indo, yah boleh dibilang cukup sukses lah samannya.. hihi, its been awhile since the last time we did saman. it kinda bring back memories, when we're practicing and performing traditional dance.. you know, since we're no longer alizhar's student (soon), if we want to perform our traditional dance, we must use other name for our group, so yesterday, everyone agreed to called our group "the srikandi's"
well i know, its a bit embarrasing though,but since yesterday is cika's bday, so yeah, we decided to name the group after her name.. yah drpd dinamain sekuntum bunga mawar or whatsoever..

and after we performed, we (me,dash,mars,tha,fit,may,rvin,ryan,utaz,akbar) hangout together in grand indo, we watch Narnia :Prince Caspian, which is a movie tht i hv been waiting for so long, 2 and a half years, omg omg.. but its all worth it..since the caspian is so gorgeous and handsome, omg im goin crazy!!! no no no help! and peter is gettin hotter too.. well edmund, i know hes a bit cute in the first narnia, but hes just not my type..  and in the second narnia, i admit that hes gettin hotter and cuter, and older, but thts it.. and still the gorgeous award goes to caspian, and the runner up is peter!!!!!!!!!! kyaaaa
i think i like (much) older man.. idk, but they always get the charisma, tht younger ppl dont have. fufuufufufuf...
overall the movie was great, i like the second narnia better than the first one.. its so entertaining, full of english jokes.. but most of all.. THE CASPIAN OMG OMG OMG...

i wanna write sumtin about holiday :

you wake up late, so late in fact, even sometimes you miss breakfast time. you wake up, slowly open your eyes, look at the time, its 8am, too morning she thinks, and then she fall asleep again. and then something wake her up, like a gentle touch from invisible hand. and she hears, "wake up". she looks at the clock, it shows 10am.. ok, i'm ready to wake up, (but too lazy to get out of the bed), she took the tv remote and turn it on.. nothing interest her, she change the channel from mtv to star world to V channel to celestial to travel and living, to E channel and then to animax, and mostly she end up in E channel.
she knows she should done something which is exercise! but she's always not doing it.. why ??shes just to lazy to turn on the dvd and put the cd in. and instead of exercise her body, she get out of her room and looking for food.. from bread, rice, even noodles.. gah!
how on earth is she gonna get thin?
she dont have any plan for today.. so she turn on the computer and modem, and start browsing, looking at her fb, fs, online on msn, open her blog, mysoju.com, crunchyroll.. or she turn on her dvd and watch her latest dvd, and grab a snack..

holiday is when your dvds and internet become your new bffs, where your body gain weight, when you dont take a bath until you can take it anymore, when you're too lazy to do anything even get out from your room, when your room is a mess.  but mostly, holiday is when your body gain so much weight and you dont really pay attention :)

OMG OMG YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Ev7XvYIN-7Q!!!!!
GOD, WHTS WrONGG!!!

if ur not indonesian, heres the story :
the girl who sing ( well not exactly singing though) is cinta laura, shes 14 years old, and actually the lyrics she sings on this video comes from the dialog in her tv show (i think), and at first, it became jokes, but eventually, there's a company tht want to record this dialog and put this dialog into ring back tone!so people can download it, (we must pay 9000 rupiah or $1 every time we download it) and rite now, because of it she got lot of money.. duuh..so stupid.. gosh..

and you know its the same case as william hung if u remember.. he got a lot of money too rite ?!

well i just found out, that a korean student in sydney, australia, was found murdered by two chinese men and apparently the korean student, turned out to be, Lee Dong Gun's brother (korean actor). His name is Lee Joon Yub. He was killed in George St, in front of Hungry Jack's.
Although i'm not Lee Dong Gun's fans, but when i heard this, i felt really sad. (because i imagined, that would be my brother, hiks hiks).